I sent my beta readers a few samples and decided from the way they commented and advised me to go ahead and put a little more detail in (I’m getting too good at summarizing my thoughts since the days of 10,000 word emails) that I would also put more focus into a style I was playing around with. The comments were great, from very different readers, so my content is good, but if readers are asking for more as opposed to less, I’m thrilled. So no, manuscript submission hasn’t happened yet. It will.
When I finish it will be organized like 5 different books layed out together like a layer cake into one book, so if someone is more interested in, say sex and death from my angle vs cognitive challenges at various ages, they can skip sections and continue to see progress I made in particular areas. This way a non-aspie reader can follow some coherence. Aspies can be notoriously wordy, and I tend to want to go off-point and then gather too much into one conclusion.
I figure I’m developing an atypical writing style that mirrors how I actually skip around reading (I read books backwards sometimes, starting at the back to help me grasp the front) and my beta readers love this idea. My goal is to create something that helps readers experience my world, not just by telling stories, but by leading them through the woods of my thinking while I tell the stories without us all getting lost.
My biggest challenge is presenting the stories from several points of view. I’ve already made a beta reader cry, so I’m having to be careful about how I share my views as an aspie child so that it’s easier to see both my mom’s and dad’s points of view, too, in a world void of compassion for parents raising difficult children while still learning the value of emotional health for us all as the stories go along.
You hear people ask “If you could go back in time and change one thing, what would you do?” After some thought, I decided that if I could go back in time as the age I am now, I would be friends with my mom and tell her everything is going to be ok. The most important thing I could give her is a hug every time someone told her she was doing it wrong.
This book will be for all the parents of children who are not yet ready or able to hug, and for the children who will one day wish they could go back in time and let their parents know- Everything is going to be ok.